A window opens A novel

Review by New York Times Review

EARLY ON IN Elisabeth Egan's debut novel, "A Window Opens," the narrator and main character, Alice Pearse - part-time magazine editor, full-time wife and mother of three children under the age of 12 - self-consciously invokes that familiar cultural catchphrase, "work-life balance," admitting she's "the tiniest bit smug" about her own equilibrium. "I wasn't part of the high-powered commuter set and I wasn't a PTA insider," Alice says, "but I got to dip into both worlds." Think of it as the Chekhov's gun of chick-lit: If, in Chapter 2, a character appreciates her tidily arranged life, you can bet she's on the verge of losing her sanctimonious footing. As the novel begins, Alice is working three days a week as the books editor at You, a magazine, she says, half-jokingly, read by "sorority-girl health nuts." (In this respect, Alice resembles her creator, who was the books editor at Self for seven years and currently holds the same position at Glamour.) Alice loves her job, not only because she finds it intellectually engaging but also because it leaves her time for the extracurricular pursuits of suburban house-moms, like spin classes and coffee dates with friends. Yet when her husband learns he won't make partner at his law firm and quits to starts his own practice, Alice must find a job that pays enough to support her family. Enter Scroll, a fictional hybrid of Barnes & Noble and Amazon (where Egan also did a stint), whose dubious mission is "to reinvent reading the way Starbucks reinvented coffee." The company's plan is to set up the bibliophile's version of the business traveler's airport lounge, where, in leather armchairs, readers can enjoy e-books along with foot massages, coffee made from "humanely" treated beans and baked goods free of allergens. Old-school types who prefer "carbon-based books" - otherwise known as books - will also find first editions for purchase. The aim, clearly, is the commodification of an experience that, like sleep or sex, would seem impervious to such an impulse. Still, for Alice, an optimist and lifelong book lover who bought her house in suburban New Jersey for its proximity to an independent bookstore, a job at Scroll seems pretty close to ideal. Readers will immediately see where this story is headed. Alice soon finds herself a harried and exhausted working mother with an 80-minute commute; kids whose needs are unmet and milestones unnoticed; a husband drowning his stresses in beer; an ailing father she has scant time to visit; a babysitter more familiar with her household than she is; an unmanageable inbox where emails proliferate like mold; and paralyzing guilt about all of it. As Alice's life unravels, or sort of - it never feels quite as dire as we're supposed to think it is - Egan implicitly situates her novel alongside other famous first-person narratives about female characters juggling their work and personal lives. "Bridget Jones's Diary" is name-checked, and speaking of names, Alice Pearse seems a sly homage to Allison Pearson, the author of "I Don't Know How She Does It." But Alice is a tamer creature than her fictional predecessors. Although Egan tosses off the occasional snappy observation ("His forearms were slim and elegant like hairless cats," Alice says of a colleague), her heroine doesn't have the wild, neurotic hilarity of Bridget Jones or the keen, bone-dry cleverness of Kate Reddy. One could argue that this is because Alice lacks the sharp edges that make a fictional character memorable, if not always likable or admirable. Whereas Bridget Jones vows to stop smoking, drinking "more than 14 alcohol units a week" and falling for "people with girlfriends or wives," Alice's resolutions are far more domesticated: "Become more flexible in all senses of the word, stop snapping at my family, start feeding the parking meter, take wet laundry out of the machine before it mildews, call my mom more, gossip less." Here, as in the aforementioned novels, work-life tension sets the plot in motion, with Egan toggling (to use a favorite Scroll word) between both realms. Home for Alice is a fictional upper-middle-class New Jersey suburb called Filament, an enclave of competitive mothering and extreme self-care where dogs take Prozac and women take Bar Method classes. Egan's evocation of this milieu is heavy on brand-name signifiers - Lululemon, Banana Republic, SoulCycle, Anthropologie, Whole Foods, Garnet Hill, Moleskine, Bose, Chobani - and feels too mired in fact as a result; it fails to do what the best fiction should, which is to transform or heighten reality. The many passages about Alice's family are equally comprehensive. We learn which stuffed animals her 5-year-old daughter takes to bed, how she likes her peanut butter sandwiches prepared and what each child wrote on Alice's Mother's Day cards. If you have limited patience for charming, heartwarming tales of other people's children, in life or in fiction, this is not the book for you. Far more absorbing are the sections that describe Scroll. Egan has an eye for the absurdities of the corporate workplace and an ear for its preposterous jargon: "drilling down," "onboarding," "action item," "noodle that over." And she's very funny on the cultural chasm separating Alice, who is in her late 30s, from her savvy younger colleagues in their "statement glasses." As Alice puts it, "Sometimes I felt like one of the Danish au pairs I made plans with on the front lawn of the school - understanding but not understanding." These workaday passages are further enhanced by the presence of two delightfully loathsome villains. Genevieve, Alice's boss, is "the human equivalent of a Fiat," with an "efficient smile" and a management style Alice describes as "befriend, then berate." Worse still is Greg, Scroll's imperious president, who tells Alice he thinks women should stay home with their children ("I mean, listen, I'm no rocket scientist, but I think kids need their mom") and motions as though turning down the volume when she talks. Upon noticing a stack of hardcover books on Alice's desk, Greg asks, "You really want to pollute the environment with that crap?" Let's just say that the name Scroll should have been a hint. In the end, the company turns out to be less than dedicated to its literary mission. And Alice, faithful reader who won't even let her children play video games, finds herself, like so many of us, increasingly distracted, constantly scrolling through her phone, checking email at every street corner and even while her father is on his deathbed. Work-life balance, such as it is, has become subject to an ever more pressing duality: real life versus virtual. The heroine's company aims to 'reinvent reading the way Starbucks reinvented coffee.' AMANDA FORTINI is a contributing editor at Elle magazine.

Copyright (c) The New York Times Company [August 23, 2015]

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Review by Booklist Review

*Starred Review* Alice Pearse's life was comfortable. Her husband, Nicholas, was a prospective partner at his law firm, her three children were in the post-toddler, not-yet-teenage stage, and her part-time job as book editor for a glossy women's magazine left enough time for PTA meetings and spin classes. Until Nicholas takes an early train home to tell Alice that he won't be making partner. Also, he'd really like to set up his own business, and her part-time salary needs to be a full-time salary. After combing through a few leads, Alice is ecstatic to land a job at Scroll, a trendy new offshoot of a major big-box retailer. Thrown into a new world of jargon and spreadsheets, Alice's previously comfortable life is no more. In her first novel, Egan appears to be drawing on personal experience; as the book editor of Glamour and a mother of three, she herself must navigate the intersection of domestic and career life. Alice's struggles are relatable and heart-rending the decline of her cancer-stricken father is a particularly poignant arc. For its insider's view of the publishing industry and some not-so-thinly-veiled jabs at Amazon, fans of I Don't Know How She Does It (2002) and Where'd You Go, Bernadette (2012) will adore A Window Opens.--Turza, Stephanie Copyright 2015 Booklist

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Review by Publisher's Weekly Review

Glamour magazine's books editor Egan immediately lures female bibliophiles into her protagonist Alice Pearse's story, when Alice identifies herself as one of them by mentioning her reverence for beloved children's book series such as Pipi Longstockings and Nancy Drew. That love of books and reading stays paramount even as the middle of the narrative starts to sag. At the outset, Alice's husband learns he will not make partner at his Manhattan law firm, and her perfectly ordered life is upended. As a mother of three, a part-time magazine editor, and a book club organizer at her friend's indie bookstore, she realizes she will need a full-time job while her husband sets up a suburban law firm in New Jersey. Just then, a job working for a trendy company's new venture-creating a national chain of e-book lounges that will also sell first editions-comes her way. Alice's excitement turns to bewilderment, then disenchantment as the job of her dreams slowly becomes a nightmare while her father's cancer returns and her husband begins drinking. Though the author successfully skewers start-ups and corporate culture, Alice's disillusionment with her trendy employer is slow to play out, filling much of the space with repetitive plot developments. Agent: Brettne Bloom, Kneerim, Williams & Bloom. (Aug.) © Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

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Review by Kirkus Book Review

What happens when a book lover gets caught up in the tech world? Alice Pearse is happy with her life as the part-time books editor at You, a glossy women's magazine, which allows her to commute into Manhattan three days a week wearing semifashionable clothes and still have time to hang out with her kids, go to spin class, and grab coffee with friends. But when her husband, Nicholas, finds out he hasn't made partner at his law firmand cements his decision to leave by throwing a laptop across the conference roomshe impetuously tells him she'll get a full-time job. Luckily, she soon hears from Genevieve Andrews, a woman she follows on Twitter, who offers her a position at Scroll, a sort-of Amazon/Starbucks mashup that wants to revolutionize the world of bookselling. Egan's voice is knowing and funny, and she has a great eye for the minutiae of the modern working mother's life. Alice picks Legos off the floor, orders her kids' class pictures, and calls in a renewal of her dog's Prozac prescription: "His birthday? Honestly, I have no idea.He's not my son! He's my dog!" The scenes at the tech company aren't as sharply satirical as Dave Eggers' The Circle, but it's fun to see Alice try to get a handle on the lingolearning to schedule a 1-to-1 instead of a meeting, for instanceand keep up with the company's shifting priorities. The book is brimming with relationships and subplots: Alice's father is dying of cancer but finds time to nag her about her social media profile ("Why no cover photo on your [Facebook] timeline?"); her best friend, an independent bookstore owner, is struggling with her business; Nicholas is drinking too much while trying to get his solo practice off the ground. Egan, herself the books editor at Glamour, packs an incredible amount of humor, observation, and insight into her buoyant debut novel, a sort-of The Way We Live Now for 21st-century moms who grew up loving the bookish heroines of Anne of Green Gables and Betsy-Tacy. Women may not be able to have it all, but this novel can. Copyright Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.

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A Window Opens 1 In my book, January and February are just frozen appetizers for the fillet of the year, which arrives in March, when you can finally wear a down vest to walk the dog. That's when I commit to my annual resolutions: become more flexible in all senses of the word, stop snapping at my family, start feeding the parking meter, take wet laundry out of the machine before it mildews, call my mom more, gossip less. Throughout my thirties, the list has remained the same. On this particular sunny and tentatively warm day, I was driving home from spin class, daydreaming about a pair of patent leather boots I'd seen in the window of a store near my office. They were midheight and semi-stylish, presentable enough for work, with a sole suited for sprinting through the aisles of the grocery store. Maybe I recognized a little bit of myself in those boots; after all, I fit the same description. When I stopped for a red light in front of the high school, my phone lit up with a photo of Nicholas. The snapshot was three years old, taken on wooden bleachers at the Y while we were waiting for our son, Oliver, to finish basketball practice. Splayed across Nicholas's chest was the paperback edition of The Cut by George Pelecanos; while he grinned at my then new iPhone, our daughters, Margot and Georgie, each leaned in and kissed one of his cheeks. "Hey, what's up? I'm just driving back from Ellie's class. Since when does 'Stairway to Heaven' qualify as a spin song?" Silence on the other end. I noticed a spray of white crocuses on the side of the road, rearing their brave little heads. "Nicholas? Are you there?" "Yeah, I'm here." Another pause. "Nicholas? Are you okay?" "Yeah, I'm fine. I just--" More silence. I watched as a group of high school kids trampled the crocuses with their high-tops and Doc Martens. The light turned green. "You just . . . what?" "Listen, Al, I'd rather not have this conversation on speaker while you're driving. Can you call me when you get home?" I felt a slow blossom of anxiety in my throat. When someone starts talking about the conversation in the third person, you know it's not going to be pretty. "Nicholas. What's going on?" "I can't . . . You know what?" I heard a noise in the background that sounded like a big stack of papers hitting the floor. "Actually? I'm coming home. I'll be on the 11:27 train. See you soon." There was a strain in his voice, as if someone had him by the neck. "Wait--don't hang up." But he was gone. Suddenly, I felt chilly in my sweaty clothes. I distractedly piloted my minivan down Park Street, past a church, a temple, a funeral home, and a gracious turreted Victorian we'd lost in a bidding war when we first started looking for houses in Filament. My mind raced with possibilities: Nicholas's parents, my parents, his health, an affair, a relocation. Was there any chance this urgent conversation could contain good news? A windfall? What was so important that Nicholas had to come home to say it to me in person? In the seven years we'd lived in New Jersey, he'd rarely arrived home before dark, even in the summer, and most of our daytime conversations took place through an intermediary--his secretary, Gladys, doyenne of the Stuyvesant Town bingo scene. I called Nicholas back as soon as I pulled into the driveway of our blue colonial. When the ringing gave way to voice mail, I suddenly felt dizzy, picturing the old photo pressed to my ear. The girls had grown and changed since then--Margot's round face chiseling down into a preteen perma-scowl, Georgie's toddler legs losing their drumstick succulence. But what struck me was Nicholas's jet-black hair. It had been significantly thicker in those days, and a lot less gray. I couldn't remember the last time I'd seen him kick back with a book, let alone look so relaxed. I was about to find out why. •  •  • I spent the next hour repairing damage wrought by the daily cyclone of our kids eating breakfast, getting dressed, and supposedly cleaning their rooms but really just shoving socks, towels, and Legos under their beds. Eggshells in the garbage disposal, Leapin' Lemurs cereal in the dustpan, Margot's tried-on-and-discarded outfits directly into her hamper even though I knew they were clean. I filled out class picture forms--hadn't I already paid for one round of mediocre shots against the backdrop of a fake library?--and called in a renewal of the dog's Prozac prescription: "His birthday? Honestly, I have no idea . . . He's not my son! He's my dog!" Cornelius lifted his long reddish snout and glanced lazily in my direction from his favorite forbidden napping spot on the window seat in the dining room. I kept checking my phone, hoping to hear from Nicholas, but the only person I heard from was my dad. Ever since losing his vocal cords to cancer, he'd become a ferocious virtual communicator. His texts and e-mails rolled in at all hours of the day, constant gentle taps on my shoulder. The highest concentration arrived in the morning, while my mom played tennis and he worked his way through three newspapers, perusing print and online editions simultaneously. Many messages contained links to articles on his pet subjects: social media, the Hoyas, women doing it all. That day, in my state of anticipation and dread, I was happy for the distraction. Dad: Dear Alice, do you read me? Alice: I do! Dad: Just wondering, are you familiar with Snapchat? Me: Sorry, not sure what this is. Dad: Reading about it in WSJ. Like Instagram, but temporary. Pictures only. No track record. Me: I'm not on Instagram either. Have nothing to hide anyway. Dad: I can educate you. These are great ways to stay connected. Me: I'm on FB. That's all I can handle. Dad: Yes, but why no cover photo on your timeline? Dad: Hi, are you still there? Dad: OK, TTYL. Love, Dad We live four houses from the station, so I headed over as soon as I heard the long, low horn of the train. By the time I'd walked by Margot and Oliver's school and arrived at the steep embankment next to the tracks, Nicholas was already on the platform. He looked surprisingly jaunty, with his suit jacket hanging from his shoulder like a pinstriped cape. He kissed me on the cheek--a dry nothing of a peck that you might give to someone who baked you a loaf of zucchini bread. He smelled like the train: newsprint, coffee, vinyl. I shivered inside my vest and pulled him in for a tight hug, wrapping my arms around his neck. "What is going on?" Nicholas sighed. Now I smelled mint gum with an undernote of--beer? Was that possible? The train pulled out of the station and we were the only two people left on the platform. I was vaguely aware of a gym class playing a game of spud on the school playground behind us. "I called it and he moved!" "I didn't move, she pushed me!" Nicholas leaned down to put his leather satchel on the ground. It was a gift from me for his thirtieth birthday: the perfect hybrid of a grown-up briefcase and a schoolboy's buckled bag. As he straightened his back, his green eyes met mine. He put his hands through his hair and I thought of the photo, my chest tightening. "Alice, I didn't make partner." At first, the news came as a relief. A problem at work was small potatoes compared to a secret second family or an out-of-control gambling problem or the middle-age malaise of a friend's husband who said, simply, "I don't feel like doing this anymore," before packing a backpack and moving to Hoboken. Just a backpack! Then: the lead blanket of disappointment descended gently but firmly, bringing with it a sudden X-ray vision into our past and our future. The summer associate days when we dined on Cornish game hen and attended a private Sutherland, Courtfield-sponsored tour of the modern wing of the Met; the night Nicholas's official offer letter from the firm arrived, when we climbed a fire escape to the roof of our apartment building and started talking--hypothetically, of course--about what we would name our kids; the many mornings I'd woken up to find him, still dressed in clothes from the day before, with casebooks, Redwelds, and six-inch stacks of paper scattered willy-nilly across the kitchen table. You don't know how big a binder clip can be until you've been married to a lawyer. What next, if not this? But first, why? "Oh, Nicholas. I'm so sorry. I mean, just . . . Really. Wait, I thought the partners' meeting wasn't until November. Why are they--" "It's not. Until November, I mean. But I had a feeling--" "You had a feeling? Why didn't you tell me?" "Alice, I don't know, okay? I'm working with Win Makepeace on this bankruptcy--the one I told you about with those bankers who wanted to go out for karaoke? And he let slip that it's not going to happen for me. Actually, he said it, flat out, as if I already knew. Should have known." I pictured Win in his spindly black chair with its smug Cornell crest, how he would have smoothed a tuft of sandy hair over a bald spot that was permanently tanned from a lifetime of sailing on Little Narragansett Bay. Who names their kid Win, anyway? Not Winthrop, Winston, or Winchester, just Win. I was proud to come from a family where all the men are named Edward. Then I snapped back into the moment, shaking my head as if to dislodge a pesky thought. "So, wait, he just said, 'Nicholas Bauer, you are not going to make partner at this law firm'?" "No, not like that. I made a tiny mistake on a brief--a comma instead of a period--and he said, 'Bauer, let's face it, you're not Sutherland, Courtfield partner material.' " "He did not." "He did." "Nicholas, is this even legal?" I grabbed his hand and pointed us in the direction of home. "Of course it is. He just stood there in his fucking houndstooth vest and basically told me I had no future there. That, in fact, the partners decided last November, and they weren't going to tell me until a year from now--" The swings on the playground were empty, swaying lazily in the breeze by their rusted chains. Sadness kicked in at the sight of them. Hadn't Nicholas given up enough for this law firm? How many times had I watched him knot his tie, lace his dress shoes, and board the train on a Saturday? How many vacations had been interrupted by urgent calls from clients and arbitrary deadlines from partners? Nicholas kept going, spelling out the logistics of how these decisions are made and the arcane, draconian methods law firms use for meting out information to their unsuspecting workhorse associates. But I already knew the drill. My dad was a retired partner at another midtown law firm; I grew up hearing about the personality quirks and work ethics of candidates who didn't quite make the cut. There had been eighty aspiring partners in Nicholas's so-called class at Sutherland, Courtfield; by the time they were officially eligible for lifelong tenure--the proverbial golden handcuffs--they would be winnowed down to five, at most. Even knowing this, I'd never imagined Nicholas would be part of the reaping. By this point, we were in our kitchen, where Cornelius wove among our legs, whimpering anxiously as if he sensed the tension. I made a fresh pot of coffee that neither of us would drink. Nicholas and I were rarely home alone without our kids, but my mind didn't go where it normally would in such a situation. Only two weeks before, my parents had taken the kids for the weekend, and before their car was even out of the driveway, we'd raced upstairs to our room. Suddenly, Georgie had materialized at the foot of our bed, looking perplexed. "Wait, why are you guys going to sleep?" Nicholas and I leapt apart, and he grabbed a book from the floor and made a show of reading it. I tucked the sheet under each arm and reached for her hand, which was dwarfed by a plastic ring from the treasure chest at the dentist's office. "Georgie! You're back so soon?" "Pop brought me back. I forgot Olivia." Olivia is a pig in striped tights; she came with a book by the same name, and she's a key member of Georgie's bedtime menagerie, which also includes Curious George and a stingray. "What are you two doing?" Nicholas put down the book: Magic Tree House #31: Summer of the Sea Serpent. "We're . . . napping." Georgie chewed the end of her scraggly braid, beholding us suspiciously with hazelnut (her word) eyes. "Okay, well, don't do anything I wouldn't do!" She turned on her heel and ran downstairs. The minute we heard the front door close, we picked up where we'd left off. •  •  • Now Nicholas leaned against the counter, absentmindedly peeling the clear packing tape we used to hold our cabinets together. Our kitchen was in dire need of a facelift--the black-and-white checkered floor was so scratched, it looked like the loading dock at a grocery store. We'd been saving up for a renovation. "But at least you can stay at the firm until you find a new job, right?" "No, that's another thing." "What?" I envisioned sand pouring through a sieve: vacations, restaurant dinners, movies, a new car, college savings, retirement-- every iota of security spilling out and away. "Alice, I can't stay there." "What do you mean you can't stay there?" "Oh, come on. You know how it is. 'Up or out.' " Nicholas's shoulders slumped and I rubbed his back in wide circles, as I did when one of the kids threw up on the floor in the middle of the night. It's okay. It's okay. He unbuttoned the top button of his shirt with a defeated air. "Now that I have this information, I really need to move on. It would be humiliating to stay--I'm a dead man walking." I pictured Nicholas in an orange prison jumpsuit, shackled at the ankles and cuffed at the wrists. "I get that." "So, I've been thinking--and this isn't the first time it's crossed my mind--now might be the time to hang out a shingle. Bring in my own clients; run my own show." "Really?" "Really." Nicholas leaned over the sink, turned it on full blast, and threw water at his face in little cupped handfuls. Then he turned back to me with glistening cheeks, shiny droplets clinging to his eyebrows. He looked ashamed instead of refreshed. "Alice, I have to tell you, I didn't react well to the news." "What do you mean?" "I mean . . ." Now Nicholas opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of beer. After he flicked off the cap, he lifted it by its brown neck and tilted the bottom in my direction in a gesture that telegraphed both "What have I got to lose?" and "Here's looking at you." I raised an invisible bottle of my own, although my mood was anything but celebratory. Even though he was a borderline teetotaler, I didn't need to be told that this wasn't Nicholas's first beer of the morning. "Yes?" "I lost it when Win told me I wasn't going to make partner." "Lost it . . . how?" "I threw my laptop across the room." He crossed his arms and closed his eyes briefly, as if to block out the reality of what he was saying, which was horrifying and surreal. An angry Nicholas was a silent Nicholas, icily folding laundry or staring straight ahead at the road for hours while driving. In all our years together, I'd never seen him throw anything except a ball and once, when we took a pottery class together, a tragically misshapen bowl. "Wait . . . what? I'm sorry. Did you just say you threw your laptop across the room?" My mind flashed on the possibility of having my own beer, but I thought the better of it--the last thing I wanted to do was arrive at school pickup with alcohol on my breath. A spark like that could ignite a firestorm of gossip whose fug would follow me for years; I'd seen it with a mom who was spotted at the Scholastic book fair with a tiny bottle of something in her satchel purse. It could have been hand lotion or hair spray (this being New Jersey, after all), but the die was cast. The woman was never invited to be a class parent again. Nicholas fiddled with the refrigerator magnets, arranging the unused alphabet letters in a little line at the top of the freezer door. QPITZLSF. "Yes, I threw my laptop across the room. But we were in a conference room, and there was a lot of space. And the laptop was closed, so . . . well, I guess that doesn't make it any better, but at least it didn't shatter." "That's something." No mess to clean up, no injuries. Still, I felt a little light-headed. I closed my eyes and pressed my index fingers onto their lids until I saw orange kaleidoscope patterns. "Yeah, I guess." "Did it . . . make a lot of noise?" Nicholas looked sheepish. "Yes." "Well. At least . . . you're going out with a bang?" We both laughed, halfheartedly. Nicholas tilted his head back and took a long swig from his beer. His neck looked smooth and young; he might have been twenty, pounding a Natty Light in the office of the college newspaper. "Glen--remember him from my basketball team?" "Yeah?" "He has space I can rent in North Caldwell. I think I might have a few clients who would jump ship, and I've been coming up with ideas for bringing in new ones. I want to give it a whirl." "Wow. Nicholas! You've really thought this through." I didn't believe this, not for a minute. Nicholas and I are hardly models of perfect communication, but we keep each other in the loop when it comes to major decisions. "I guess. I won't miss the commute, or feeling like a minion all the time. But it'll take a while to get up and running. That's what scares me." "Are you worried that you've burned a bridge?" (I really wanted to say: Aren't you worried these people will think you are out of your mind?) "Maybe? But for me that was a bridge to nowhere." We were quiet for a minute, both standing there like characters on a movie set. I knew what my line was and I delivered it without hesitation: "Nicholas, we'll make it work." "I know. I'm sure it will turn out to be a good thing, I just--" "It's already a good thing. Nobody should have to stay in a place where they want to throw something across a room. We're going to figure this out. I'll find a new job. Full time. We'll survive." I tried to sound cheerful, game for anything, but the truth is, I was petrified. I wasn't sure if I was ready to up the ante on the work front. Our kids were still little. I loved my part-time job at You magazine. I worried that it would take years for Nicholas to start his own firm and that he was now unemployable thanks to this understandable but completely uncharacteristic violent outburst in his past. Nicholas unthreaded his cufflinks--little elastic knots that he had in every color of the rainbow. "Actually, that's not a bad idea." "Which part?" "You working full-time." And just like that, the page turned. We were on to a new chapter. •  •  • At bedtime, Georgie picked Sylvester and the Magic Pebble, which I can read with my eyes closed. Normally, it's only the two of us for stories; Oliver and Margot like to read to themselves in their own rooms. But tonight they were shoehorning their bodies into Georgie's single bed by the time I finished the first line: "Sylvester Duncan lived with his mother and father on Acorn Road in Oatsdale." If March is the fillet of the calendar, this is the fillet of parenthood: that one, brief part of the day when lunchboxes are unpacked, bickering is suspended, and everyone smells like toothpaste. Margot didn't move away when my thumb found the cleft in her chin, and I didn't flinch when Oliver's bony shoulder wedged painfully into my spleen. Georgie pulled her knees underneath her stretchy Tinker Bell nightgown and sidled further up the bed to make more space. Excerpted from A Window Opens by Elisabeth Egan All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.

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