The urgent life My story of love, loss, and survival

Saint John captures in this uplifting debut how personal tragedies and regrets shaped her vow to "live life urgently." Born to Ghanaian immigrants, she married Peter, a second-generation Italian American in 2003, despite the disapproval of her strict parents. Their marriage foundered when troubles hit, including the death of their premature daughter after Saint John developed preeclampsia during her pregnancy. Her second pregnancy was successful, but Saint John's and Peter's mutual grief and cultural differences that were so hard to reconcile that t hey "created a valley so deep" between them that they separated with a plan to divorce. Then Peter was diagnosed with terminal cancer, and Saint John pledged to "no longer take anything for granted, not a love, not a moment." She recounts the trauma of waiting for him to die, reflecting that "when you're in darkness, instead of waiting for a ray of sun to appear, you sometimes have to find the light within." That wisdom carried Saint John through the last days of Peter's life, and she incorporated it into her career, as well, having held executive-level positions at Pepsi, Apple, and Netflix--where she became "the first and only Black person in the C-suite." Saint John's forthright approach and reliance on her spirituality are inspiring. Readers will be touched by this heartfelt message of hope. Agent: Suzanne Gluck, WME. (Feb.)

A successful marketing executive's account of how her estranged husband's terminal cancer diagnosis brought them together again and taught her to "live every day of my life with urgency." As Saint John shows, she and her husband, Peter, were very different people. She was the American daughter of middle-class Ghanaian immigrants who had settled in Colorado; he was the son of working-class Italian Americans from Massachusetts. Even though she longed for a "Black Prince Charming," she fell head over heels in love with Peter, who had no Black friends but had "a profound interest in the African American experience." Together, they faced considerable opposition from Saint John's father and from Peter's family, who treated her like she was a mere "passing fancy." Even cosmopolitan New York City, the place they called home, failed to provide a safe haven. Rather than be "swept up in that diverse city's embrace," they found themselves subjected to hostility from both Black and White strangers. Nonetheless, they overcame the challenges within their families and got married only to come face to face with their own interpersonal differences. As Saint John's career brought new opportunities, her husband suffocated her and "advised me against following my gut." After losing their first child during the birthing process, they had a second, seeking to fix a "broken" relationship. They separated and had other relationships until Peter was diagnosed with terminal cancer and given a short time to live. Faced with an urgency to "stuff years' worth of memories" into Peter's last days, the author came to the realization that his illness and death could serve as lessons in gratitude for the things and people in her life that she had not taken the time to appreciate. Tender and fierce, this book explores loss, interracial love, and the complexity of human emotion with humility, candor, and grace. An intimately revealing and moving memoir. Copyright (c) Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.